Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Remembering my Dad

This afternoon I was showing Emma some pictures of me when I was a child. Being 3, she has a hard time wrapping her mind around the fact that I was once little like her. She thought it was so funny to see me looking like her. And really cracked up when I showed her a picture from when I first came home from the hospital. It's a family picture, with my sister holding me. She couldn't believe that was Aunt Tara.

Some of the pictures I showed her were these - me with my Dad.


(May 1977)


(No date, I'm thinking 1977 or 1978)


(July 1979)
In doing so, I had to explain to her who exactly this man was in the pictures with me, because she had no idea who he was.
Six years ago today, my Dad died.
Which means Emma has never met her Grandpa McIntyre. She has no idea she had another Grandpa or that I had a Dad, really. While I gave her a quick explanation, it wasn't something she lingered on or asked any questions about. I don't think it's something her young mind can really understand. We quickly moved on to some other pictures and she giggled some more. And then she was bored. It was time to do something else. Because, as you probably know, three-year-olds don't have the longest attention spans.
But I've been thinking about the pictures. Thinking about my dad. The good and the bad. Missing him. Wishing he could meet his granddaughters. Wishing I could hear him laugh. I love you, Dad.
I realize this is way more serious that any post I ever write. I'll be back to my regularly scheduled posts containing amusing (at least to me) stories about my daughters and scrapbook layouts tomorrow. And one of these days, a menu plan. :)

9 comments:

cheryl said...

wish i could hug you! it can't be the easiest day for you. :(
but this means your anniversary is coming right up, right? :)
love the photos of you...you were adorable as a kid! (what happened? jk) ;D

Missy said...

Oh Erin...I didn't know this. Hopefully scrappin tonight kept your mind on good times:) Love ya!!

Chris and Paige Evans said...

Blogging is very therapeutic and a great way to remember things, IMO. I love those pictures, they're very sweet.

kristina proffitt said...

Love the photos and your sweet blog post, Erin. BIG hugs.

Marie said...

someday when she is older, it will be as she knew him because you will tell her. you will share stories of those good times and she will giggle some more. then laugh at how much she looks like her mama. wow.

Rebekah said...

sending you hugs, girl...and memories of hwy 23. *lol* :) glad you sat down and typed up this post...and shared those adorable photos of little cutie-head erin.

stacydoolittle said...

Bless your heart Erin. Very nice post and pictures. Hugs to you.

Susie said...

She really does look like you, E! I think it's pretty cool that images can surface and stories and memories aren't too far behind so you can share your love for your dad with your daughters.

rachelmarquette said...

oh erin! where too start? I am sorry you have this anniversary to remember. But you have more wonderful memories with your dad to share with your girlies as they get older. emma looks so much like you as a little girl! I see a serious kinda of healing layout coming...